A Life's Story

This is my life's story! I had a father who did not want me. A stepfather who was not good to me, so in many ways I grew up wanting and needing, wishing I had that kind of love but I did not. I have never been married and sometimes that bothers me and makes me think that there is something wrong with me, for that is what my stepfather, who raised me, used to say to me. He would say that I would never amount to be anyone or no one would love me because I was a nobody. I never had any children of my own. I did however, adopted a wonderful child which I named Caleb and I love him dearly as if he were my biological child. I have tried to adopted two other children but in the end it did not work out. I am not an Aunt, that may not mean much to very many people, but it does to me. I guess in life, all I have ever wanted was to be the best Aunt and MOM, and Wife. For a long time I let words of a man tear me down, let the devil beat me over the head with things that meant so much to me, but if I would have given it all to God instead of letting man and devil have their way with my life, I would not have went through half of the terrible things that I have gone through.

In 7 day's it is going to be 8 month's that I given myself completely back to God. All those feelings that I have had about not being married or not having any more children, I can honestly say God has put peace in my heart. It is no longer a problem for me and I am happy with just me and Caleb. I am trying to make it to heaven, trying to figure out what kind of work He wants me to do for His kingdom. I know God has more in store for me, when the devil tries to tell me lies, that means God is fixing to bless. So keep on lying devil. Keep on lying.